a deserted land

for five months, i had disappeared. my blog was deserted. it was a wasteland of old reviews, wrap ups, abandoned. the two recent posts, a interview with an author, was missing so much passion and dedication present in previous articles. it was written for the sake of getting it done, so it could also count as a nonexistent post. there were no pings in emails indicating i had published.  i had not pressed the button to create a new post for a long time. the wordpress even changed layout while i was gone

don’t worry, there’s a huge chance none of you noticed this. i know this as a fact. still, what matters is i noticed it and it did bother me. blogging, i found, is something very dear to my heart. the reason why i avoided it was because i disliked the way i did it. i’ve realized that i was publishing things i did not like doing. blogging was not fun for me nor was it rewarding. this year, i plan to make it fun, to write about topics i’m genuinely interested in. i long to voice out my opinion, even if no one can hear me.

i want to publish more things here and especially since school has finished, i would hopefully get more things done. i wish to write more here. so look forward to more posts and a change in blogging style, appearance and name soon. i’d want this blog to reflect me, not a person i tried to be.

thank you for reading! 

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am i still alive and other questions

You’re alive.
Yes. Yes I am alive. I am quite sure of that. But in terms of blogging and publishing posts, no. I haven’t been quite active for, say, a month?
 
Why haven’t you blogged?
School is the major culprit, although my procrastination is a close companion. I spent quite a lot of time with my cats, doing nothing, eating, Youtube-ing and the like.
 
Did you do anything productive?
Well, around September I decided to reinforce my old self and discipline. I started exercising, writing, meditating daily. I had a point system, which is extremely helpful.
 
<sidenote> If you’re a procrastinator like me, having a point system would help you become the person you want to be. basically, it works a lot like HabitRPG (this site is also the bombdotcom), but a bit simpler. You assign a point, say 50 for each productive thing you did. Read 100 pages? 50 points! Wrote 500 words? A hundred! It brings the competitor/gamer/nerd in me. My daily quota is 200 points. I get to watch YouTube at the end of the day. </sidenote>
 
So. Are you still going to continue blogging?
Yes. Don’t worry about that. I won’t be doing my August Wrap Up since it’s too late for that (AndIAlsoCompletelyForgotEverythingThatHappenedInAugust) BUT I might add the books I read in my September Wrap Up.
 
What are you going to blog next? 
Let me go elementary on you: secret. *runs away giggling*
 
What are your goals? 
  • to blog every week (except if i have exams)
  • every saturday i’ll write a blog post and a review
  • i will assign little tasks to do before saturday (take pictures of my books, make a graphic)
Anything else?
Nope. I just hope I can do this. Pray for me guys. 

blogging slumps // updates

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(pretend you can’t see my new design and that you don’t know I’m insane for changing it 43628 times a year)

Hi.

I guess every blogger experiences this.

That feeling that makes you pressured whenever you write posts. Or makes you stressed about writing a review. That feeling when you see blogging as work, not a fun activity.

If you’re a blogger, you might have encountered a blogging slump.

I did. Just recently and I hated it.

Sundays are usually Blogging Days wherein I write a post and schedule it to the different days of the week. It was good. I liked doing it. But after a while, around October, I just didn’t want to do it anymore. But of course I did.

That was not a good decision.

Why?

Because I started viewing blogging as work. And I despise work.

And that continued up until November. I don’t know if you can see the lack of passion in my older blog posts like songs on repeat. What was that?

But I have successfully gotten out of it and I can’t wait to write more!

Thank you so much for reading and putting up with my nonsense! Um, bye!